I am so I am going on
the new year of the way
Put the other day to be
able to see you through my name
And then you locked up
the ways of the other day
and then we have a bit
of this message in the new York city
and I am going to be able to see you
I remember when teachers tried
to define creative
“Creativity is painting abstractions”
“It’s putting yourself into something”
Creativity is waking up in the morning
and being able to function.
Creativity is your routine that you hate.
Creativity is everything you do.
That’s because creativity is defined
as “Use of imagination or original ideas”
No one has ever thought the way you have
You are always creative
You are always creating
It’s becoming increasingly difficult
to care about much of everything.
Not because of lethargy
or some inexplicable lack of motivation
but because of lack of care
I get back from society.
I’d love to walk peacefully through a city
and see warm colors
in the passersby
but the color palette
consists of blues and grays
and I don’t know if my skin is thick enough
to comfort me in this frozen world.
There’s a haunting romance
in the way that time has such a hold on us.
Time draws lines in our skin
and erases them away
in the years after passing.
Time leaves you wanting more
or wishing things would pass.
Time is what gets us out of bed
and realize we’ve stayed up too late again.
We are puppets in a claustrophobic stage
Longing for someone to cut the strings.
But it’s apparent that the passing of time itself
With no room left for leisure
Is the catalyst for those urges.
Every time I turn on the radio
It seems like another sensation
singing about their heart.
Bruised, broken, in love, what have you
it always comes back
to a muscle in the chest.
I could be a cynic
but loving someone
from the bottom of your heart
is a bit cliche.
I’d rather look someone in the eyes
and tell them their touch
pleases every nerve in my body
that their presence sends warmth
from my skeletal frame
outward to the surface of my skin.
I wish someone had told me sooner
that love was deeper than settling
that life was grander than existing
that success was more than winning
I played a game
assuming the rules
rather than reading
I wondered why I fell behind
I was angry that I wasn’t in first
I was depressed that I was left.
Now I’ve taken the time to listen
learning the rules
I learned that there are no rules
and in assuming there were I fell behind
focusing on what never was.
After 3 hits
I was shattered
I felt my pieces fly away from my core
I was nothingness
giggling like a schoolchild
for 8 minutes.
About 9 minutes in
my pieces came back
I felt a new body
a new mind
a new spirit
It was 2 o’clock
and the weight I never knew I had
never came back down
with the rest of me.
The world is a beautiful place
I am in control
I embody love
I think healthily
After 3 hits
I was fixed